Little I Know…
“Now the God of Peace, who brought up from the dead, the great Shepherd of the sheep through the blood of the eternal covenant, even Jesus our Lord, equip you in every good thing to do His will, working in us that which is pleasing in His sight, through Jesus Christ, to whom be the glory forever and ever. Amen.” Hebrews 13:20-21 NASB
THE GOD OF PEACE…
PEACE… freedom from oppressive thoughts and emotions. Freedom from disturbance. Freedom from discord. Freedom from struggle? Freedom in PEACE.
This summer was supposed to be a summer of uninterrupted preparation. To plan for the ever pressing EP; song write, focus, learn, and push myself. It then turned into a summer of disappointing doctor appointments, nightly tears, crying out to God in my pain at 4am, asking why he could not just heal me. He is the great physician, knowing every detail of this condition. Day after day I lament to Him, asking, pleading for relief and healing has not come… not physically. But I ask the question, can healing be more then just a physical act of eliminating an ailment?
If daily, physical pain is something you conquer each day this story will resonate with you. For those that don’t, still keep reading. I encourage you to not shy away from this subject, but to uplift and walk life with those that do.
February 2018 I started to notice a change. May of 2018 my symptoms started to escalate. I started feeling sick on a daily basis, constant stomach pain, nausea that would overthrow me, dizziness; these are just a few. Before I go any further, this is not a deathly condition and there are those that struggle much deeper then me; never the less, it is a daily trial and part of the story God is writing for my life. This story and life events have had a major influence on the songs I’ve written and some of those particular songs I plan to share with you in my upcoming EP releasing April, 2019.
As I go into this my 3rd year I catch myself over thinking, worrying about what will happen, if I will be able to participate in class and engage in the demanding daily tasks. “These things I have spoken to you, so that in Me you may have peace. In the world you have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world.” John 16:33. It is a daily responsibility to have courage and ultimately let go of what I can not control. Friends, why worry about tomorrow?
PEACE. Something I forget. PEACE. Something I crave. The God of PEACE. Little I know of what the future holds, but what a privilege it is to let it out of my hands and ask my Heavenly Father to carry it for me.
To God be the Glory.
In His Service,